January 15, 2012

• Broken

  I hardly know what to say or where to start.  I have been getting over a bit of a cold.  At least that is all, I hope.  After a half dozen trips to the doctor with Tomo, we might have him on the mend too.  Hopefully.  It has been such a rough year on him.  So much growing going on, and his poor body responds with illness.

  These past couple of days have reminded how fragile life and how broken this world is.  Not due to colds or ingrown toe nails or rashes that have gotten infected.  None of that.

  One of our supporting churches had asked people to pray for a 5 year old boy who has been sick and in the hospital for some time now, but we learned that the little boy was swept away into the arms of Jesus this past weekend.  So sad.

  This weekend I have learned of a precious friend whose marriage is on the brink due to her spouse’s unfaithfulness, and I am reminded of this broken and imperfect world.  My heart breaks, and I long for Heaven.

  My initial response is to want to cling to what I have.  Hold my children closer.  Hold them just a few minutes longer.  Thankful for my husband and want to snuggle into his arms to feel safe and secure.  Actually I would like someone to just tell me that 5 year old boys do now just die and that people’s marriages do not just crumble.  Unfortunately, this sinful world does not work like that.

  But in a second it could all slip away.

  We got a vivid reminder of how quickly things could slip away this past March 11.  A single moment in time…a moment that would be recorded in the annals of time.  

  I do not want my assurance to be in my children or my husband and certainly not my things.  My assurance comes from Jesus.  In that moment, when life sweeps away, the only thing left is Jesus.  Don’t get me wrong, I will steal as many cuddles from my loved ones as I possible can, and I will do my best to serve the Lord while it is still called to today, but I am never assured of a tomorrow.  

  Sorry that this is a bit of a heavy post.  Just trying to process some of the weekend news.  And am being reminded how I need to keep my eyes focused on Jesus.

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